As I

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As I weep myself to sleep,

in broad daylight for escape,

A sunny ray seeps in.

Glorious sunshine of hope –

attractive promise, its aim.

Alas, I refuse to cope.

In my dark space, I remain.

As I keep my grim silence,

in my own path of solace,

the world begins to dance.

The ground takes a beat with joy,

while melodies fill the air.

Still more, I resist to toy,

for I hold onto my tears.

As I shy away from you,

in sadness and in my fear,

I stay unheard and blue.

Trapped within my own battle,

the earth continues to shift.

On and on, it won’t falter,

not knowing if I exist.

As I…

(c) Phoenix Montoya @ April 30, 2011

'With or without us, the world will move on. A reminder for me.'

Emptiness

Sing me a song of gladness,

for there is nothing for me.

No sound, no hymn,

but silence.

Write me some lyrics of love,

for my heart has turned frosty.

no life, just ice,

not a hope.

Please pray for my wretched soul,

for within me a hollow.

My shining thoughts,

a shadow.

Ill feelings within my care-

suffocating angst and gloom,

as darkness boom,

evermore.

© Phoenix Montoya @ March 16, 2011

'Nothing remains.'

Sonnet 074

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A hymn inside my head, your voice so dear,

you haunt me in my sleep and in my wake.

Somewhere deep within, your whisper I hear,

crisp and clear, as perfect as a heart ache.

Sad images I keep, nightmares I take.

Still, I go forward onto my own road,

towards the rising sun for my soul’s sake.

How I’ve prayed my heart be free of this load-

of the memory of your lovely voice,

or a tomorrow not meant for this world.

Thus, heart’s happiness is always a choice,

to go on and live as a wise man told.

Forever lingering, scars will not mend,

yet, someday its feel a forgotten fiend.

'Letting go.'

(c)Phoenix Montoya @ January 28, 2011

Could Have Been

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He saw her pass by.

A beautiful glow was on her face.

He smiled his sad smile,

as he remembered her sweet embrace.

Could have been his,

her smile, her kiss.

Yet, a mere memory.

He saw her meet her lover.

Fear had been his sin.

Back then, he could offer her nothing.

Her love, he won’t keep.

Alas, he went on and let her weep.

Could have been his,

her love, her face.

If she had kept his heart?

Forever he will wonder.

(c) Phoenix Montoya @ November 29, 2010

More sad poems by this author:

Is It Love?

Ice Queen

Broken Spirit No More

Tell Him

Immured

Screams of terror,

echoing through the walls.

Heavy chains clang,

and she endlessly sobs.

She shouts and weeps.

The castle remains deaf.

As night engulfs,

she mourns in great anguish.

More and more groans.

Grand voice becomes hoarse.

She stifles a cackle,

as dying hopes prevail.

Horrible fate,

merciless verdict.

Death within walls.

Her real nightmare gnaws.

Soon, mere scrapings,

no hints of cries within.

Handsome maiden,

into a rotting flesh.

A living corpse,

between the lonesome walls.

In dark solace,

forever, she will dwell.

(c) Phoenix Montoya @ October 29, 2010

Other dark poems by this author:

Pendulum

My Elisha

Mesmerized

Pyramid

I wanted a 'pyramid structure' but ended up with a triangle :P Anyway, the video with this link was an inspiration. The following are my favorite lines of the song...

'Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid'


My poem 'Pyramid' has a different message though.

Pleasant Walk

Peaceful night with the stars above,

the evening is lively and young,

as we walk home,

hands clasp as one.

The world has changed before us.

New places to discover,

foreign faces around us.

Indeed time has made its course

There are lingering changes,

as maturity unveils.

Our time together, lost,

as unending tasks take place.

Lovely evening grows dark and cold.

Slowly, twinkling stars disappear.

You hold me close.

So soon, it ends.

(c) Phoenix Montoya @September 2, 2010

Poisoned Heart

The link weakens day by day,

as the sting gets worse.

Some sad bitterness to say,

in my heart it will hold.

The sweetness of your voice, lost,

gone with your silence.

My pleading gaze, you abhor,

as my own fate crumbles.

Slowly you kill me inside.

Little by little,

the promise of love dissolves,

as hate consumes it all.

Copyright by Phoenix Montoya 7/24/10

More dark poems by friends:

Darkness From Within by Debra Mann

Silent Cries by MMV Abad

Fallen Angel by Maximilian Montes

Broken Spirit No more

The cold night touches her skin,

as the sea engulfs the sun.

Alone once again,

but no remnants of pain.

The dark reminds her of him.

Now she sees the stars above.

Fading thoughts of him,

her sole freedom from gloom.

He broke her heart yet found strength.

Now she stands proud on her own.

She smiles at the sky,

Longing has come to end.

Copyright by Phoenix Montoya 7/23/10

More dark poems by friends:

Apocalypse by Debra Mann

Stalker by lillyrose

Dragonflies

The breezy clear weather of June,

and the scent of grass, a dejavu.

Colorful dragonflies flutter,

as the wind sings its beautiful tune.

My coming back to an old place,

your peaceful world that was once my own

Everything here, a reminisce,

without you, not a home anymore.

I used to hunt for dragonflies,

their magnificence, I want to keep.

You had been angered by it,

worried about my little mischief.

Yet you never said, I love you,

my foolishness, your disappointment.

I loathed you, but couldn’t hold.

You are always a father to me.

The gentle wind blows once again,

scattering dragonflies by the field.

Teary- eyed, I searched the heaven,

your new tranquil place with God.

Copyright by Phoenix Montoya 7/23/10

More sad poems:

Heaven's Promise

Breathe for You

Best Friends Forever

I can never leave you,

never will forget you.

Let us be friends my dear.

Amuse me with your grace.

I hate to lose your smile,

don’t want to miss your face.

Let’s be friends my sweetie.

Share with me your laughter.

Let me be your brother,

I’ll have you my sister.

Let us be friends my love.

We’ll have fun together.

Never will we be lovers.

I’ll love you just the same.

Let’s be friends forever.

Forever… till the end.

~Maximilian Montes~

More poems by my friend Maxi:

Priorities

Fallen

Why Do People Die?

Why do people die?

My deepest agony.

Once it was natural,

today it’s personal.

Why do people die?

My pain, my sarcasm.

Once my life is perfect,

now it’s a complete wreck.

Why do people die?

Silly question I ask.

We knew all the answer.

Yet I painfully ask.

Why do people die?

Now feel my spirit break.

Missing her, missing him.

Why do they have to die?

Copyright by Phoenix Montoya (5/28/10)


More sad poems:

Breathe for You by MMV Abad
Missing You by MMV Abad